Hidden

I hide from pointing fingers, accusing and judging.
I hide from eyes that see, they always take with them,
a part of me.
I hide from venomous lips and spiteful tongues,
those that lie and hate.
Alone, I am safe and free.

Now that you are gone

My lips quiver at the thought of you
This wild thing in my chest thuds appropriately
I know not what I have passed up on
The chance at future happiness perhaps?
Or maybe the failure of a love refused?
Thoughts of fairytale endings no longer preoccupy my mind
There is no prince charming
The end of the rainbow is simply mist
And I shall continue to exist without you.

Lost

Do not look for me.
I am lost.
Do not pray for me.
There is no absolution.
Do not pity me.
I will never change.
Do not love me.
I will hurt you.
Do not forgive me.
I will do it again.
Do not try to save me.
I am lost.

In Death

If I were to die tomorrow,
to expire, depart, croak
I would like my words to carry on
become eternal
Let my voice be timeless in the words I spew forth
Should I be remembered for who I am,
who I truly am, not this facade I project,
it would be a tragedy
Let me be remembered as a poet,
as a creator of whimsical ideas
of beauty within the pages.
Remember me not, outside these crisp clean pages, 
forget who I am,
I create an illusion I can not live up to
in death I shall be remembered
as beautiful.